This Monday will mark one month since I had my last cancer treatment. From February till July 31 I had chemo, one month break then four weeks of radiation after that. 10 months since diagnosis...so happy to be done! Looking back on it all seems so hazy...I cant believe I have been through it all and I am now at the other end in remission. Of course I will never forget; all I have to do is look in the mirror and see my scars and I am reminded of God's grace. I still don't know the full reason why he allowed this to happen to me, I don't think any of us will fully understand half the things we go through till the day we have that walk with him on streets of gold and he tells us the story of our lives by his perspective. One thing I am reminded daily though...to trust God with all of my life and to let him do what he needs to do so I can be used by him. Sometimes we feel hurt by God, not understanding why so much pain, so much sorrow. God gently reminds me that he is not finished with my story yet...trust him and in the end the outcome will be beautiful. I have many unanswered prayers, dreams and hopes. Some prayers have been prayed for years. I do know that when God, in his timing, answers them...life will never be the same. But I will wait on him to open those doors and again, trust him that he knows what he is doing. I have my whole life before me, a new beginning and a wonderful supporting husband and family to share and enjoy it with. What more could I want? What more do I need? Life is not about accumulating stuff...its about accumulating relationships, friendships. The title to my blog I got from one of my favorite songs by Selah. I picked it because it is the story of my life. Really above it all, I want a relationship with God.
I set out on a narrow way, many years ago
Hoping I would find true love, along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two wipe my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign, pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream, led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way, into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God you've blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent, just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost, and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan, that is coming true
Every long lost dream, led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way, into your loving arms
This much I know, know is true
That God you've blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I'm just rolling home
Into your loving arms
This much I know, know is true
That God, you've blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Yes, God, you've blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
